Jack & Jill…
March 5, 2008This is without a doubt the strangest week that i’ve experienced in my adult life…
People, people that i know and love, people that are my age, people that are not necessarily planning it… are pregnant!
Yes that’s right, two of my nearest and dearest are with child and it stirs up the strangest feelings within me, i can’t be sure what they are… Excitement? At the thought of some of my favourite people in the world passing their genes on to create new little people…? Maybe. Fear? As my mind has trained me to feel every time i hear someone’s pregnant, after all, we’re all still 16 aren’t we? A little. Jealousy? For all the female reasons, i think… Never thought i’d say that. Possibly. Nostalgia? For obvious reasons, i guess… Almost definitely. A feeling of disappointment that i’ll not be there so see any of it? A realisation that i’m too far away from some of my best friends to be part of their lives anymore… Yeah.
Anyway, i am truly happy for them all, they’re both settled with lovely guys and happy in their careers, as such, both always wanted children, at some point, and now they’re there, there at that stage in their lives…
I still feel strange though… Need to leave the house, clear my head…
You may not believe me, but… I fully understand what you’re meaning.
Really? I am shocked, but i do believe you.